hate my life

I hate my life! Everything in it!

What's the point of keep hoping for something that will never happen?

Nothing went well. It's not important any more.

Well, that's not true.

I really should sort out priorities.

So tired and still got work to do.

Life is miserable and no one will understand.

Am I only dreaming?

I talk a lot doesn't mean I know what I'm talking about.

Where are those negative feelings come from?

It lasts for a while. It's not going to end well.

Should I change the way of thinking? Just stay postive for no reason?

Be happy anyway.

I'm fine, I said it to myself a lot but didn't mean it once.

And I'm not happy.

I don't understand myself even.

Hate being me.

What's wrong? Well, just nothing is right.

I need bad feeling outlet.

Life is so hard.

Life really is a bitch until you die.

升职了

今天的人事任命终于下来了，正式升职了。

只高兴了一小会儿，我的愿望不是这个。

 

新同事

今天来了一个新同事，名字叫龚雪！

Are you kidding me?!!!

just let go

逛博的时候看到--如果遇到的人这样该放手了：

1.没事从不主动给你发短信或飞信，也从不主动给你打电话！
2.当你们的QQ同时在线时他/她也从不主动和你说话，即便你一直陪他/她在线，那人也感觉不到！
3.每次你主动和他/她说话时他/她都以简明扼要的话结束战斗，或以哈哈、呵呵…敷衍你！
4.从不拜访你的校内主页或空间，即使你是他/她的最近访客那人也不会回访你！
5.他/她总说要为你做这做那，可话过之后就忘在脑后，因为你根本就不是他/她想承诺的人！
6.当你有病或受伤或有什么伤心事的时候却很少问候你甚至从没听过他/她关心你的话，更没发过关心你的短信，说明你不重要！
7.当你累了，倦了很希望有个肩膀可以靠的时候却从未看到他/她的影子！
8.每逢特殊的节日或是你生日的时候，他/她不会想到为你庆生，或一句祝福，甚至一条只有节日或生日快乐的短信都没有，说明你们只是同学一样的朋友！
9.有些比较敏感或是暧昧的话，他/她不只和你一个人说过，他/她经常对别人或是同时对很多人说过！那些话千万不能信！
10.当很晚时你和他/她聊Q、短信时，困了他/她会直言对你说，不会为你多做停留！
11.当他/她看到别的女生/男生和你有什么过于亲密的举动或照片时，他/她没有伤心或醋意的话，说明你不是能影响他/她的人！
12.当你看到这些时想到心里的那个他/她很荣幸的做到了7条以上，那么祝贺他/她失去了一个爱他/她的人。他/她不是你要守护的人，放了心中的那个人，寻找真正属于你的那片森林！

我觉得前面三四条就受够了。

I'm scared

scared scared scared scared scared scared scared scared scared scared scared scared scared scared scared scared

scared scared scared scared scared scared scared scared scared scared scared scared scared scared scared scared

scared scared scared scared scared scared scared scared scared scared scared scared

skins

Skins's not like other shows, not superficial. It reveals how life really is, no veil to cover the ugly truth. About the 4th season, at first, I think it's all about betrayal, Tomo betrayed Panda, Naomi betrayed Emily. Then I realise it's all about love. But that intense love made Effy mad, Freddie dead. Love destroys things, breaks heart into pieces. No one survives and nothing remains the same. I'm just gonna quote what Cassie said before.

Cassie:Do you konw what hurts the most about a broken heart?
          Not able being to remember how you felt before
          Try and keep that feeling
          Because,if it goes...
          ...You'll never get it back.
          Then you lay waste to the world...everything in it.

What we should do is live hard like Cook does. Try really hard and shout out loud like Katie Fucking Finch.

The 4th season ended so abruptly, it's difficult for me to understand what's going on, like what's the point of killing Freddie? Seriously, I don't get it.

I like what Effy said in 405, the claw thing, that she used to be strong and love made her weak.

Now I'm under so much pressure, things under my skin are gonna burst out too. For so many times I think i cannot handle it any more. I wish I can fight all the time. Never get lost and mad.

I just realise that tomorrow I will go somewhere near njupt, so weird you know years past and revisit some place with totally different feelings.

Just be strong. You can do this.

Good luck

Sad today, I don't wanna be, just can't help it.

I'm watching Friends now, smiling outside, crying inside.

The bad days last so long, nothing is right.

I'm so tired of being alone, and can't see the future of being married and having kid around.

Memories still torture me. I'm still wondering why people can act so ruthless, and don't even care to make any excuse.

I really want to meet someone who don't criticise my favorite color, don't make a list of my flaws and remind me constantly.

Even I'm Phoebe weird, I hope there's someone who thinks I'm wonderfully weird, just like Mike does.

Good luck, me.